from such great heights

when you are away

Posted in life by chapwoman on June 27, 2009

she breathes softly. she exhales summer breezes and shines summer sunshine for the few souls that actually stroll on sidewalks and linger in the courtyard of engineering west.  though Cal Poly is less crowded during the summer, she keeps breathing; breathing the buzzing of jack-hammers in the UU plaza, the footsteps of families guiding themselves from building to building, and the rustling of trees which line the paths where noisy pedestrians usually gather.

surprisingly, students still rush to class when they’re ten minutes late, the parking police still make their rounds in the library parking lot at noon, and campus market still sells tri-tip sandwiches at lunchtime.

the weather seems nicer though…but maybe it’s because i can actually enjoy the sunshine, rather than coop myself up in studio every afternoon of monday, wednesday, and friday.  and there is less traffic: perfect for a bike-riding citizen like myself.  staying in san luis for the summer isn’t as bad at all, not with these sunsets and these random jam sessions and these days without obligations.  not bad at all.

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as much as i hate LA

Posted in life by chapwoman on June 22, 2009

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she sure looked beautiful tonight.

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monday

Posted in life by chapwoman on June 22, 2009

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something nice from eunju kang

things i have to do today:

_exercise
_shower
_wash the car
_go to the bank
_pack………..pack.
_drive up to san luis

but all i want to do is lounge around & tan like i’ve been doing the past week.

_chappie

at last

Posted in life by chapwoman on June 15, 2009

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i’ve been praying for this moment when i just sit down with mental images, with keyboard, with silence, able to exhale the stress of two months past & finally inhale a fragrant summer morning.

first breath: the long strand of days which made up “second year” is finally over.
never again will i pack my daily schedule with that many “to-do” items.  i’ve learned that God wants us to say NO to some things & our trust in Him is revealed when we do.  when we fail to say “no,” our days become years full of rushed mornings and malnutrition and so-so work performance and so-so school performance and lack of exercise and monday-night headaches and weekend studio hours and weakened friendships.  NO. ne-ver. again.

second breath: i sucked at relationships this year.
i sucked at calling friends to hang out, i sucked at initiating hard conversations, i sucked at asking people how they were really doing, i sucked at caring.  i sucked at being there.  the thing about busy schedules is that they don’t allow much “relationship” time.  friend time? yes. real conversations with big cups of coffee? not so much.  i feel ashamed for putting friends on the back-burner this year, for assuming they would last without any real effort on my part, and now it’s time to start repairing broken ties, because i’ve been getting “fix-it” tickets all year long.

third breath: through the bad, YOU remain so, so GOOD.
thank you for grace. thank you for peace. thank you for prayer, for new friendships, for laughter amongst stress.  for morning jogs when my legs were stiff from camping in studio, for roommates who understood and didn’t judge, for friends who flew out from ohio to visit for a week. thank you for testing my faith, for providing me with words during spritual conversations, for a wonderful group of girls in sequoia.  thank you for the flexible, on-campus job.  thank you for new crushes. thank you for the divine gift of time-management. and i thank you, again, for grace.

second-year, you were a rollercoaster.  i will not write about you a lovely nostalgic blog to match that of my first-year in the dorm, but i will take your mistakes and the morals of your story, reciting them until i’m blue in the face & sure that third year will never repeat you.  you weren’t so bad, but you weren’t so good.

last breath: reflection feels like drinking a glass of water.

_chappie