from such great heights

the logic board.

Posted in life by chapwoman on February 28, 2009

That is the dreaded diagnosis for a macbook that won’t awake from its sleep.  Maggie Pro fell into a coma Thursday night (30 minutes before I left San Luis Obispo) and she has yet to be revived.  So I’ll sit here and wait. (until Monday morning when the doctors at Apple do their thing).  And I’ll let my website go unfinished until next week and I’ll let my study abroad application sit in a dormant “documents” folder and I’ll have to decide what my fingers can do without a keyboard to tip-tap. 

I think it’s good for me to wait

because dear friends, I am ashamed with how I’ve become so dependent on technology.  Granted, it’s 2009…if people aren’t dependent on technology by now, they are probably living in a forest somewhere without electricity.  But I was sadly reminded on Thursday that technology is puzzling and frustrating and will do what it wants, regardless of what we want.  Macbooks will do what they want, regardless of your website project that’s due in a week.  I was reminded that I am not in control and that I will never be completely in control.  But my Creator is, so I can rest in the truth.  And wait for a new logic board.  

c’est la vie,

ps. i know i haven’t written in a while and there really aren’t any valid excuses i can come up with. but once Maggie Pro is up and running again, be expecting.


lovers’ day

Posted in life by chapwoman on February 14, 2009

thank you Matt Nathanson for writing this masterpiece.  you’ve just made my month.


these days

Posted in life by chapwoman on February 11, 2009

are feeling like one long strand of life.


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halfway home

Posted in life by chapwoman on February 9, 2009

it is the sixth week of winter quarter here in San Luis, meaning the school year is 50% complete.  so far, year two has felt like one deep breath and i’m laying in my bed wondering where all the hours studying for structures went, where the hours cooking for my roommates and the hours spent in studio escaped to.

all it takes is some growing up to realize that time wasn’t meant to pass us slowly.  it was meant to rush by us, to irritate our skin and to ruffle our clothes, leaving us completely dumbstruck by our yearbook photos and what life was like back on the playground.  God created time to do this, to make life feel like a spec on eternity’s time-line.

and i laugh at myself for trying to “manage” this universal clock, trying to cram every nook and cranny of my schedule with an appointment, a chore, a friend…because the Inventor of time didn’t design it to be controllable.  i feel like time is this abstract blob continually bursting out of the seams i put it in, and it just keeps expanding.  and expanding.  if only i could sit back and watch all of this life unravel, marvel at my friends who meander through it with each of their unique personalities and habits, wonder at this sudden recession we’re experiencing, even reflect on how i wound up in this town with this major and these interests.  but i can’t do that.  because i’m slightly OCD with my time and have this slight problem of overbooking myself.

summer isn’t too far off though.  i can smell it more and more everday, even as February raindrops splatter outside my window.  time will scoot June right along.


what you may not know…

Posted in life by chapwoman on February 6, 2009

1. the amount of sips i got out from my morning cup of coffee before dropping it on the sidewalk in complete shame & embarrassment.  :[

2. i exchanged my goldie-locks for brunette ones…and i won’t be going back for a very long time. if ever.

3. exercising has slowly become my friend again, despite a hectic schedule. brita, erin, and i are frequenting cal poly’s gym MUCH more this quarter.

4. i will be studying the lovely language of espanol in spain this summer.

5. thanks to christian, i’ve become slightly attached/can’t stop dancing to the remix of “dream on” by robyn. listen here.

6. i’ve been chocolate-free since january 1st (going until Easter), but i’ve traded that addiction for coffee. it’s pretty pathetic how i don’t actually wake up now until i have my cup of black tar.

7. i need to make more room in my schedule for line-dancing. it’s such an underrated good-time.

8. the girls in my bible studies are blessing my life more than they will ever know.

9. the amount of hours it takes to learn how to use freaking dreamweaver. whoever created html & css really didn’t understand what “user-friendly” meant.

10. the rain this week has been a serious source of refreshment. keep it coming, keep it coming.

11. it’s brita’s birthday this weekend, therefore, we will be celebrating tonight.